The first word in my mind about learning is "hard".
I couldn't find anything that make my spirit will rise.
I even couldn't change my mind which bother me.
It's all about pride. Everything in my self always about pride.
I don't know that was my weakness or my strength but i know this "i wouldn't fall", even in my deep heart, i can't promise you that.

These days was so hard.
Moaning, sad, prejudice, pride, confuse, dishonest, everything which mean is gather to bother me.
i know to understand and not make my time wasted is "Quit".
Get out of this mess and forget.